The dilemma:28 August 2009

I am not sure if I made the right choice..if what I decided was the right thing to do.i am too far to turn around..i wonder if I killed a soul or saved two…

But this confusion have no judgement day...But still I am declared guilty ...

Take my word..

I will be back there where I was declared guilty some day..and will be proud …

Perfect..??

So does the perfect man really exist??

Wondering from where I got the idea. Well I was watching this movie today evening which revolves around the perfect man definition. Made me wonder that if really the perfect man gets u a flower when he first meets u? And does he really never complain about u talking too much? And what if he doesn’t like what u’r wearing? He won’t tell u & still like u even in rags...huh??Well though that really sounds perfect to me but where he is??I have met a few guys carrying a flower for somebody…but hey they not often r the perfect guy…

Haha...look at me, am thinking how it would be to meet a guy like that in life though it's not of much use...ah yes.i would have felt blessed but all I know is I know my definition of perfect man..He may not be perfect to praise me all the time. Nor to get me a gift every time (though not even on specials)...but yes he gets me anythg i ask for.and he gets me flowers too not coz he wants to do that but coz he knows I will love it… so that’s how my perfection goes..!!And I love it that way...

:)

Cheers!!

Life upside down..

A recent accident has like inaugurated a whole new store for me..i get into trouble even more often now..its actually so easier for things to fall out of place all the time..like hurt my head.messed with family, today doing nothing burned my hand, spilled things,broke glass, lost so many things, lost my temper so many times.n on n on..

look at me!!...

i knw i will be fine thgs will be fine..i knw all tell me not to worry..its just a phase of time will pass..i know this all..i m just wondering.. why???

i just think stars are not with me at the moment...either they have lost the route or its me..

m behaving different.n ya i dont mind it..

Wire V/S Rod..!!duh..!

So back to a weird discussion amogst a few people..m the victim as usual..

I was wearing a small red bangle one fine day.A girl said hey i like your bangle.Like always compliments are always welcomed.i smiled back and said Thanku dear..but then as a habit now all want to take a closer look by taking it in their hand..ok fine..m in no mood to talk too much so i kept quiet and gave the bangle to them to ponder a little more over this timid soul.

In order to go ahead i should explain a little more about this bangle.Its a small metal ring over which a thread is wound..simple..

Now the girls have somthg to talk about engineering..

Somebody asks:Is this a plastic wire inside right?i said no its metallic..but then second somebody said hey dont be stupid its not a wire its a rod..

okey..i m confused..!what did u say??

now she explains:"a rod is a wire only when its diameter is smaller than its length..n its a rod when its not"...

n to this dare not to argue or question...

but m still confused.!!!

So my days repeats as usual

More i run away from troubles,more m pushed in troubles..

Anyway what i want to write about is being responsible..n see who is taking abt it..me..yes because i know i have never been responsible about anything...family,food,house,love,life,frds,studies,job nothing at all..yes one thg i hold good is nothing..

I kind of make mistakes not to learn from because by the time you realise I'm soo screwed that I hardly get a second chance to be cautious..not my fault..i m innocent..really ..

you dont trust me??

i know u dont....

Why wait??

Well it's been a long time waiting for life to find it's right way..waiting is never happy..you are anxious all the time.It's like a parallel world of imagination running with you...

But am wondering why am i waiting.why not just break free and run away and get things on right path..??won't that be the perfect thing to do/??Ya there are a few hurdles and a few are really huge but then if you are walking on a smooth road its definitely the wrong one.!

The problem is decision is not entirely on me otherwise you know i would have picked the craziest thing, if required, and got my life the way i want it to be,,..!But frankly i hate the word "Wait"..

lost my patience..
:(
Let me Free..!

7 May 2009

She quietly escaped her mom's eyes and got out of her house just before it got dark.She had no vehicle as her sister was out for coaching.She had to walk so much that day.She purchased a simple cake and left it at his house as a gift.Came back and called me..To hear her cry was so tough and then to stay calm and talk the right thing.I asked her to come to my house next day.

Next day she came..her eyes were swollen..she was looking tired.she had so much on her mind ,so much to say...i was confused how to get started.I am not very good at talking things..I had my own life all messed up and ready to crash at that moment and then to give her advice...But she was different,he was different.!We went to my terrace to get solitude from rest of friends.I still remember everything- her face, the sun, the drops of tear in her eyes and the strength in her thought.All I could manage was to comfort her a little but not much of help.But then things had to change for the best.

All was once upon a time story and today she got married to her school days love ,to the person who never left her think of the other side of the coin..
They holded on to see the beginning of their new life together.And yes this is the day...

Cheers to you both!
Love you guys.!